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Thursday, 21 September 2017

What I Wanted and What I am Now

Every kids have their own aspirations for something what they want to be when they grow up. I am the one who also want to be something I want to be. When I was in elementary school, my grade for IPA or Science Knowledge was satisfyingly good enough that made me want to be scientist or veterinarian because I like learning creatures and see how I can save animal life.

I changed my aspiration for my last year on elementary school to be an Islamic religion teacher or Ustadz, I was not so sure why I wrote it on the aspiration field in our senior year book, but the situation where I took and attended boarding school after graduation perhaps made me to fill it.

I was so innocence and naive about seeing the world works, in my boarding school where I spent 7 years being focused to study religious texts and being in ascetic way for junior years made me forget what I wanted to be since there were no area to learn on such boarding school. There is nothing to regret though for me deciding to take the path. There are many things that affected my life and way of thinking eventhough its so limited world.

Fast forward to my college days, I took English for Education as my major. I didnt know single idea how I will end up where I realized that this major was for people who want to teach English. I wasnt not interested in teaching instead I was excited to learn English because it opens my curiosity for the world I have never accessed.

And boom, 5 years passed and I graduated. My interest are eexpanding, I took many interests in learning any fields and I dont take the job as teacher because I think I dont have the competency on that field and its not something I dont want to be stuck on that. Its noble profession, but here... what I wanted to be and what I am now.

I took different path and still curious to learn everything I want to learn.